Since 18 October, i have been working non stop, non stop as in from monday all the way to sunday, Monday to Friday 7am - 2.30pm, after that go for driving lesson so i reach home about 8pm on weekdays, and saturdays and sundays 7am - 6pm. The OT by my company is optional one, so alot of people ask me why do i chiong so much...1 hours 5.50 only not worth to tire yourself out for that little money, and that has been going on all the way until now, which is today, hari raya, that i finally get to sleep all the way till 10.

I also dunno why i wan chiong so much, it's hard to explain. The job itself...it's kind of interesting, but at the same time boring cos u keep repeating the same whole process. The people i work with are interesting too, which may be part of the reason that makes me wan to keep going to work. It's tiring too, slping an average of only 6 hours every night, i am tired. But still i want to go, and i can't really tell why. After today's rest, i would be working from tomorrow thruday straight to this sunday, and the working hours are 7am - 10pm for this 4 days as we are nearing the end of this current project and this final 4 days we must finish everything we started.

People ask what am i working as, actually it's just a normal part time job (except i dun really work de part time hours, or full time, i work the OT hours, 7am - 10pm). $5.50 per hour, a little lower than the part time market rate. People say with my qualifications can easily find one that pays me $1500 per month and and i onli need to work weekdays, normal working hours. I agree with that too, just that currently while waiting for my police letter, and at the same time looking for a job that has flexible hours to allow me to go for my driving lessons, this current job is actually not a bad choice. At the very least, i feel happy working there. There is stress, but its a healthy one.

Something about my job, we work project base. Every project we work in 4 different conditions in a chamber. 2 of which are 15 degrees (damn cold) and the other 2 30 degrees and 32 degrees (very hot). We run printers in these different conditions and testing with different medias (in your case you call it paper) to see whether the printers work well with the medias in these different conditions.

Interesting? Ok la not bad, can learn a new experience...so what's the real reason i keep wanting to go to work?

Here comes the fact, i met someone there, someone special. Someone from china, 4 years older than me, someone who i noe is quite impossible to be with, but that strange feeling of getting to see her every day, makes me feel happy. While other part timers take turns to do OT, she do everyday (yea that is part of the reason why i choose to do it daily too) and i am surprised how she can actually take it. But with my character, someone who dun talk much, despite working there for 1 month plus, i have yet to get close to her. I don't dare to, and i find that i have no chance too, sometimes i tell myself to let go, don't think about it, at the same time pray for that police letter to come faster.

Yet at the same time, i pray for that letter not to come, i thought about me leaving that place and not being able to see her again, that thought actually makes me sad. I REALLY CAN'T EXPLAIN WHY. Am i really in love with her or is all these jus delusions i can't really tell too. I'm just...lost...

The so called SPF final inerview on thursday did not went well. I was disappointed with myself. First, i alighted at the wrong bus stop, but nevermind i went to their so called building that was beside a secondary school so i found the secondary school and beside it was a police building. Naturally i felt that was the right place and look at my time i still had some time so i walked slowly towards it. After entering it, i told them i was here for a interview but after they checked, they said there was no interview going on that day. I showed them the sms i received and after reading the address in it, they told me it was another building at another side. I looked at my time, 9.40, 5 mins from being late. Therefore i ran around until i finally saw the signboard leading to that street name in my sms. I followed it and finally entered the right building.

After changing pass from the guard house, i went to their recruitment centre and the 1st thing they asked was for my IC, i searched my pocket and then AH! I LEFT MY IC AT GUARD HOUSE FORGET TO TAKE. The other applicants were already brought to the interview room while i ran back to guard house to take back my IC (guard house was quite a distance from the recruitment centre). I was sweating like hell already when i returned. When it was my turn for the interview, i had no concentration and confidence at all, every question they asked i just answered normally, like as if with no interest at all. I thought to myself...this is the end, no more policeman for me...

The next day at work, i received a sms from them calling me to go for medical checkup...is there still hope?


Yesterday went to Changi Airport to receive JYJ. I was abit surprised, only about 500+ fans appeared...i expected more. Maybe nowadays people more into the mainstream k-pop like SNSD, SHINee, Big Bang etc...but don't forget TVXQ! One of the very few boybands who can really sing and dance, but seems like we won't be seeing that anymore. Hopefully people will still continue supporting their music...

I finally found a job...i'm working as a tester for this company call hisoft...basically we test products before they are released to the market to ensure they are in working conditions...for me im working wif printers daily...

and SPF finally responded to me...like after 2 months...will be going for their so call final interview next week...hopefully i can get in.